I feel that familiar feeling

coming back through my guts

ripping it’s way by my throat

and suddenly i feel nothing


and by the shock

i stare at this screen

without any guidance

no thoughts through

my recently emptied head

it’s too much

i’m not good with emotions

or feelings at all

it comes the apathy

then the sadness

and sometimes

the anger

and i always stay like this



and i don’t know

what to do.